I confess to spreading the rumor of my master Goldstein that the war is not really with Eurasia, it is with Eastasia, and that for years, in fact since the days of our glorious revolution, I had no faith in our future. I forged government announcements and falsified figures given for agricultural and industrial output. As a result of mental disturbance resulting from my experiences during the atomic wars, I was a willing subject of Goldstein’s influence. I was stubborn and egocentric. When ownlife thoughts occurred to me, I reveled in them. I went into the proletarian zones; I had sex with prostitutes; I deliberately contracted syphillis. It was at this time that I made contact with the Resistance. I was personally contacted by the Archtator Goldstein and told to assassinate certain Inner Party officials. This, I did. My agents forged documents and gained entry to the Ministry of Truth. I spent many hours of my free time encouraging my agents to deface Party posters and hoarding announcements. I read and memorized Goldstein’s book. For 30 years, I have plotted to bring down the Party. I was sick in mind and body.